Here we go again.

You know that saying that goes something like "people need to learn their history so they won't be doomed to repeat it?" Or some other varation of it that basically states that we all need to learn past events to make sure it doesn't happen again. An example of something dreadful that happend in the past that we should make sure never happens again: the Holocaust. 

While we need to know our past to keep us from repeating the same mistakes, what about not correcting the problem? I mean you know the history of the Holocaust, yet there is still genocide going on in the world (a.k.a. Darfur). Yet, there isn't a lot of media attention about it. Many people don't really know the story concerning it and therefore not a lot is being done to correct it.

Ok, now I'm getting off topic. My point really isn't about the Holocaust or genocide, but in fact about people who know the history of a problem, but never really do anything about it. And so the problem still continues. So, just because you know the history and know that it was wrong isn't enough to not be doomed to repeat it. It takes more than that. It takes actually doing something to correct it.

"All the world's a stage. And all the men and women merely players: they all have their exits and entraces." -William Shakespere

"God determines who comes into your life...it's up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."

Two wise quotes wouldn't you say? And they are true. Life is a stage. With the actors in our lives coming in and out all the time leaving some sort of impact or mark, be it good or bad, as they go. Which, lately, has made me wonder how the people in my life have impacted me; how they have made me who I am.

I realize that my roommates, especially Pattie, have made me stronger. They've made me the kind of I-Won't-Take-Your-Crap-Anymore kind of girl. They've made me stick up for myself in ways I probably wouldn't in the past. I love the fact that these four people are in my life because I know that we'd do anything for eachother. We'd drop whatever we are doing to just help one another. Like taking someone to the emergency room in the early hours of the morning, or just being there for them when they are crying about something bad that happend, we are there for them. We also support eachother in the things the others are passionate about, and will stick up for eachother no matter what.

Sometimes I wonder if it was by luck or something predetermined (by God) that brought us all together. Whatever the answer, I'm glad it happend. I love my roomies, and they are definitly the people I refuse to let go!

Maybe I'm not meant to fix it. Maybe I'm not strong enough to change things. Should I just give up? Or should I push through and take all the suffering in the mean time? I really feel like quitting. Every time I think I'm one step closer to achieving what I set out to do, I end up two steps back. I feel like I'm stuck in the '70s or something, with gender discrimination at a high. I just want to stop trying to fix it and just take what they throw at me, but I know if I do, how will that help any other woman after me? Don't I owe it to all the women in the world to fight this? I just want to quit completely!

In one of my classes, we had to read a little story of Plato's called The Allegry of the Cave. We then had to compare it to the movie The Matrix. Both are a metaphor for the exact same thing. We were told today that we had to write a paper on whether we'd choose to live in the real world or in the Matrix/cave and why. My immediate answer in my head was "I'd choose the real world.Who want's to live in a world of disillusionment, where nothing is true or real?" We were also told we must answer a couple of other questions in our paper. For one, we must give an example of something we thought was true, but later found out was false and answer how it changed our perspective on other things.

At the time I learned of the assingment, I couldn't think of something that I would use to answer for this part of my paper. Then a few hours later, I ironiclly learned the truth about what's going on in my workplace. I learned how I have been deceived for quite some time. It hurts. Bad. I'm not even sure what to really do anymore concerning work.

Then I remembered my paper, and thought that perhaps maybe not knowing really is the better way to go. Maybe living in a Matrix or a cave, completely ignorant of what's true and real, would be better. If you don't know what's real, you're sheltered from the truth. And the truth is going to do nothing but cause you pain.

Then again, maybe it is better to know the truth. Maybe it is better to feel the hurt and the pain because it means you're actually feeling something. You're not living in a sheltered world.

What do you guys think?

Question: What do you do when you find out certain co-workers, bosses to be more specific, are conspiracing to push you to the point of quitting your job?

Now, the thing is, they can't fire you because you've never done anything wrong. For some reason they just don't want you to work there. And I'm talking about for some stupid reason like your race, gender, etc. (that would get them a nasty lawsuit if it became public).

But what do you do?

You love working there and the work you put in is good. Plus, your job will help you get something better in the long run.

So, what do you do? Do you stay and put up with their bullshit? Do you quit and let them get the satisfaction?

You can't go to anyone above them because it's going to get out that you were the one that "ratted them out." Which, in turn, means they will treat you even worse. Would it even change anything? And even if it did, would it be worth it having to put up with the crap?

Would you go to the company's competitor and tell someone there what's going on at your place of bussiness and help you take it down?

There are many possibilities of what to do, but which one is the right course of action to take?

What would you do if it was you?